MMX

Hello guys! it's themovingAUNNE again! but today's post isn't about a new place I've been to but a new experience for me. August 13 -14 was Cookout MMX and for me, it was a really nostalgic new experience. Nostalgic because I felt like I went back to becoming a freshman. I never told you that freshman year in college, I joined the sayawan competition and ever since then, I never joined a cookout competion- not until yesterday.

yesterday, I joined three different segments in cookout. First, I joined the kantahan segment where I met new friends and found confidence in myself. kantahan was my favorite part of the night because I was amazed on how my supported me and cheered me on. I really appreciated how they let their voices loose just to scream my name. I found friends that I know would be there for me to support me. thank you guys. 

the second segment was the rampahan segment. I wasn't so into it though because I got tired since it was already almost 3:00 when it started and I was hungry. though I enjoyed being a freak at that moment and my friends were still there to cheer me on. Imagine that, people who would stay up that 'early' just so they could cheer you. Wouldn't that make your heart melt? I know mine did. 

the last segment was the 30 seconds of 'bulabog'. My friend JP and I embarrassed ourselves by taking off some of our clothes - particularly, our boxers. but it was not an ordinary way of taking them off. we took them off while they were still under our other shorts. you should have seen it. it's a talent only a few men can do.

all in all, I had fun. I had an experience that I would never regret. it was an experience not all could ever have and I had the opportunity to grab it. maybe people see me as unproductive since all I did was that and I haven't even done any schoolwork but for me, I don't regret not doing schoolwork for a while. I needed a break from all the stress and confusion in my life. I needed a way to feel free from all the hassles and last night was a really great way to do that. I saw with my own eyes who were the people that supported me. I saw with my own eyes the people who would be there for me. I saw with my own eyes the people who I wanted to be with. I saw with my own eyes the people who supported me. 

Modesty aside, I am quite popular. I am an amazing person. I am a person many people would dream of becoming or having. However, nobody will ever own me...

because I share myself for everyone. That's who I should be. I have so many friends and focusing myself on only one person will only destroy me. Don't get me wrong though. I would love to have someone by my side. and I believe there are only a few people who could understand how my personality works. For some reason, I lost one of them. Although I will not say that I regret it since I've learned things but there also comes a time that they will not understand everything. And this misunderstanding just had a really big consequence. For me to solve this misunderstanding, I too have to completely understand myself. I too need to figure things out. I too have to get myself out of this confusion. And until that happens, I will continue to be...

themovingAUNNE, taking steps one day at a time... 'til next time dudes!